Post by Shannon on Feb 6, 2003 15:03:22 GMT -5
take some time off.
Since I have an active thread going with the seed thing, and since we are all worriers, wanted to let you guys know I am going quiet for a few days. Things have been brewing for some time for me on a personal level, and I need some vacation time to sort it out. Since I was going to take a few days to visit Equus America this week (before car problems) I might as well do it now. We are so in-the-hole financially, and the DH does NOT seem to get it. I am worn out from being the adult, I am worn out from being the one who worries, I am worn out from trying to see a way out of things, and I am LITERALLY worn out , because I have fibromyalgia that is normally ( and I am VERY lucky in this respect, to have found a way of controlling it) in remission, but that flares up when the weather keeps changing and i am stressed. (that's one of the reasons I was out of actively having horses so long - just could't handle the physical aspects of their care)
I hope nobody thinks I can't afford the horses - I made some adjustments at the onset to be able to manage that, and that little amount is covered every month, infallibly. It's the big things.
At 37, I have to wonder if this is all there is, and if there's a way past this. I am hard-wired, it would seem, to be the dependable one and the one who always sees the small wonders and the brighter side of any situation. I think I have finally burned those batteries out.
Anyway - just need to vent - and please try and send some good thoughts my way, because I do believe in their ability to help.
...off to find a really BIG battery recharger....
Since I have an active thread going with the seed thing, and since we are all worriers, wanted to let you guys know I am going quiet for a few days. Things have been brewing for some time for me on a personal level, and I need some vacation time to sort it out. Since I was going to take a few days to visit Equus America this week (before car problems) I might as well do it now. We are so in-the-hole financially, and the DH does NOT seem to get it. I am worn out from being the adult, I am worn out from being the one who worries, I am worn out from trying to see a way out of things, and I am LITERALLY worn out , because I have fibromyalgia that is normally ( and I am VERY lucky in this respect, to have found a way of controlling it) in remission, but that flares up when the weather keeps changing and i am stressed. (that's one of the reasons I was out of actively having horses so long - just could't handle the physical aspects of their care)
I hope nobody thinks I can't afford the horses - I made some adjustments at the onset to be able to manage that, and that little amount is covered every month, infallibly. It's the big things.
At 37, I have to wonder if this is all there is, and if there's a way past this. I am hard-wired, it would seem, to be the dependable one and the one who always sees the small wonders and the brighter side of any situation. I think I have finally burned those batteries out.
Anyway - just need to vent - and please try and send some good thoughts my way, because I do believe in their ability to help.
...off to find a really BIG battery recharger....